Fantasising today...

I consider myself straight, like many or most CD's. I have no interest in men, don't watch gay porn etc.

That said... I got divorced three years ago, and have been using this new freedom I find myself with, to explore my CD side, increase my wardrobe, spend more time dressed.. (at home more often dressed than not).
Having adhd, similar to autism in that I adore textures.. satin, silk, nylon, lace.. the feel one flow of them over the skin sends shivers all over me... and I love it.

Started making friends, but have never cammed let alone met irl. Not sure about irl.. I know how good my toys feel.. and despite getting what feels like incredibly close, I can't seem to get over the finish line with an sissygasm, or hands free.

Perhaps the real thing can tip me over the edge?

I'm starting to think a 'fellow' gurl would be ideal, I am increasingly feeling the need to have a real, hot, thick **** pushed into me.. and to suck on one, and to taste cum..

But this puts me in limbo.. I nearly cammed with someone yesterday, who's wife changed plans and ended up postponing (she is unaware of her partners proclivities!).

I've considered an escort, but have always been unsure of paying for sex, I don't think the awkwardness for me would be overridden by the sexuality..

Ideally? I guess I'd like to dress, and have an online friend who I've got to know.. turn up, and with me blindfolded.. proceed to **** me, suck me, get sucked.. get fucked..
I think I'd like a panda "eats, shoots and leaves"

So a personal bit of backstory.. if you are a girl/cd/trans (and with the greatest respect not hairy/manly) drop me a DM, and help me work towards this next step in my evolution/exploration.

Perhaps I'll write this up as a story scenario, as Smoothandjuicy seems to be the only contributor for the most part!

Also up for swapping sexy pics, sexy chat.. introduce yourself! Xxx.

It’s interesting, I think, how my motivation to crossdress has evolved over the years. When I first started, as a young boy, I was curious about what it would feel like to have breasts and to wear a bra. I remember when I first tried on one of my mother’s bras, it was a huge turn-on. As my sister got older I would sneak into her room and try on her clothes, sometimes getting fully dressed up in a dress or skirt with a blouse. I felt beautiful, the way that I felt about women that I’d see in magazines and catalogs. No matter what I was wearing, I would always find myself extremely turned on, get off, and then be ashamed of what I’d done.
In my teens I didn’t dress as often. I was in college and living in the dorms and even a fraternity house made it impossible.
When I graduated and started living on my own I started buying lingerie and clothes for myself. I had everything a girl could dream of but kept it all a secret. Unfortunately, a girl I was dating found my stash one day and I was forced to purge everything. We broke up shortly after and I was forced to start over, still keeping things a secret. I continued to date and eventually got married. My wife knew about Brynn but didn't approve, so I had to keep her hidden. We divorced after 4 years for other reasons and things picked up again. By this time I had gone beyond just clothes. I had wigs, shoes, makeup, and even jewelry. I started dating again and was very upfront about crossdressing. Granted I told girls about it via text for fear of rejection again. Eventually a girl I was dating was OK with it, even curious. She asked me to model for her, so I did, and she loved it. We've been married for 6 years now and Brynn is a regular part of our lives (when the kids aren't around). The only conditions are that a) I have to model anything new that I buy and b) I have to be locked in chastity when I'm Brynn. I don't know if that's too forward for this but it's a part of who I am and I've come to love the control my wife puts on me. We've recently begun to explore pegging and feminization/sissification. I'll let y'all know how that goes, but so far,so good!

Good evening everyone xxx I'm just back home today after a very long weekend away with some girls to celebrate one of them getting divorced what an absolutely brilliant weekend it has been..... fun, laughs, relaxing, lots of alcohol and plenty of time spent in the hot tub too.... all i can say is that a group of women together are way more fun than a group of guys...... the conversations are so much more rude

Recently divorced and looking for other sissies