Fantasising today... I consider myself straight, like many or most CD's. I have no interest in men, don't watch gay porn etc. That said... I got divorced three years ago, and have been using this new freedom I find myself with, to explore my CD side, increase my wardrobe, spend more time dressed.. (at home more often dressed than not). Having adhd, similar to autism in that I adore textures.. satin, silk, nylon, lace.. the feel one flow of them over the skin sends shivers all over me... and I love it. Started making friends, but have never cammed let alone met irl. Not sure about irl.. I know how good my toys feel.. and despite getting what feels like incredibly close, I can't seem to get over the finish line with an sissygasm, or hands free. Perhaps the real thing can tip me over the edge? 🤔 I'm starting to think a 'fellow' gurl would be ideal, I am increasingly feeling the need to have a real, hot, thick cock pushed into me.. and to suck on one, and to taste cum.. But this puts me in limbo.. I nearly cammed with someone yesterday, who's wife changed plans and ended up postponing (she is unaware of her partners proclivities!). I've considered an escort, but have always been unsure of paying for sex, I don't think the awkwardness for me would be overridden by the sexuality.. Ideally? I guess I'd like to dress, and have an online friend who I've got to know.. turn up, and with me blindfolded.. proceed to fuck me, suck me, get sucked.. get fucked.. I think I'd like a panda "eats, shoots and leaves" 😄☺️ So a personal bit of backstory.. if you are a girl/cd/trans (and with the greatest respect not hairy/manly) drop me a DM, and help me work towards this next step in my evolution/exploration. Perhaps I'll write this up as a story scenario, as [Smoothandjuicy] seems to be the only contributor for the most part! Also up for swapping sexy pics, sexy chat.. introduce yourself! Xxx.