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Busy day! The Crusty Honda is now habitable ready for collecting friends from the coach station tomorrow on our way to a wicked weekend, just last sewing and packing to do, and bathe, shave and get sweet-smelling in the morning! Can't wait!Busy day! The Crusty Honda is now habitable ready for collecting friends from the coach station tomorrow on our way to a wicked weekend, just last sewing and packing to do, and bathe, shave and get sweet-smelling in the morning! Can't wait!2 Comments 0 Shares 1K Views
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The dawn’s light, pale and meagre, stole through the curtains like an uninvited thought. My fire had long since expired, leaving my chamber in that peculiar half chill which seems neither of death nor life. There, upon the table, lay my mourning attire, folded with the reverence one affords to relics rather than garments.
The Black Satin Tartan gleamed faintly even in that dimness, threads of shadow crossing one another in solemn geometry. My fingers lingered upon it as one might upon the pages of a sacred book. How deftly I remembered the press of another hand guiding mine, long ago, when love was still unashamed to breathe in daylight.
“Gökçe,” I murmured, and her name rang through the silence, strange and sweet as the chime of a music box long unopened.
She had been of fragile constitution but radiant humour, a nurse by occupation, yet a poet in spirit. When first we met, it was under the discreet roof of a friend who hosted assemblies for kindred souls ill fitted to the rigid forms of the age. There, amid whispered laughter and the scent of spiced punch, she first beheld me crossdressed as myself, not the half version polite society demanded. Her smile, so unafraid, so brilliantly defiant had unstitched my fears as though they were loose threads upon a cuff.
Our meetings became the secret rhythm of our lives: letters written in unseen ink, evenings stolen beneath the mist‑wreathed arches of the Cathedral close, where even the saints carved upon the walls seemed complicit in our forbidden contentment.
Then came the pandemic fever. The city coughed and trembled beneath its pall, and Gökçe torn from me within a week was laid among the cold stones of St. Chad’s yard. In her final moments, as I sat cloaked at her bedside, she had whispered through cracked lips, “Promise me you will not hide yourself from the world in mourning. Wear beauty for both of us.”
Yet how could I do so? Beauty, to the bereaved, becomes a cutting blade.
Thus it was upon this morning, four months hence, that I sought to honour that vow. I made my way through the quiet lanes of the Cathedral City to McRae & Daughters, Purveyors of Mourning and Formal Attire. The shop’s brass bell gave a low, reverent note as I entered.
Mrs McRae herself appeared, a tall woman of genteel bearing, her hair silvered but her eyes bright as cut glass.
“Good morrow,” she said softly. “You come for mourning, I think?”
“For remembrance,” I replied. “Not of death, but of what death could not take.”
She inclined her head, understanding blooming behind that merchant’s polish which age cannot quite conceal. From the cupboard behind her she drew forth two treasures: a Black Tartan Satin headscarf, its sheen as moonlight upon coal, and a sheer chiffon voile veil, so fine that breath seemed likely to scatter it.
“Exquisite work,” she murmured, laying them before me.
“I require them for a pilgrimage,” I told her. “To the resting place of one whose heart yet governs mine.”
Her lips did not move, but a flicker of softness crossed her expression, a compassion seasoned by decades of watching others purchase attire for grief.
When I placed the scarf upon my head, its coolness brushed my temples like benediction. The veil descended over my eyes, dimming the world into softened outlines. For a moment, I believed I glimpsed Gökçe reflected behind me in the mirror, a faint silhouette, smiling through the satin haze.
Outside, the bells of noon tolled low and heavy across the square. I crossed the flagstones toward the Cathedral, that great monument of patient sorrow, its stones blackened by both rain and memory. The wind played with my attire, lifting the edges of my veil in gentle mockery, as if inviting me to dance once more through the shadows of our secret youth.
At the gates of the graveyard, I paused. A gypsy lady selling flowers approached shyly, clutching a handful of violets.
“For your lost love?” she asked, her accent plain as clay.
“For my beloved,” I said, and pressed a coin into her palm.
At the grave, a modest stone softened by the dew, I knelt. The fabric of my skirts rippled like dark water about me.
“Gökçe,” I whispered, “I have done as you bade me. I wear what beauty remains, though the joy of it burns like frost upon my breast.”
The wind answered in a voice not unlike laughter. The veil brushed against my lips once more, fluttering as though stirred by a sigh too gentle for this world.
When I rose, I did not feel the weight of sorrow so keenly as before. It seemed to me that in the gleam of the tartan, in the satin’s melodic rustle, something of our love still lived, a pulse across the gulf of years.
Watching from a distance, the gypsy lady would say later that she thought she saw two figures leaving the yard that day: one in mourning black, the other in pale reflection, hand‑in‑hand beneath the shrouded sun. Perhaps she was right.The dawn’s light, pale and meagre, stole through the curtains like an uninvited thought. My fire had long since expired, leaving my chamber in that peculiar half chill which seems neither of death nor life. There, upon the table, lay my mourning attire, folded with the reverence one affords to relics rather than garments. The Black Satin Tartan gleamed faintly even in that dimness, threads of shadow crossing one another in solemn geometry. My fingers lingered upon it as one might upon the pages of a sacred book. How deftly I remembered the press of another hand guiding mine, long ago, when love was still unashamed to breathe in daylight. “Gökçe,” I murmured, and her name rang through the silence, strange and sweet as the chime of a music box long unopened. She had been of fragile constitution but radiant humour, a nurse by occupation, yet a poet in spirit. When first we met, it was under the discreet roof of a friend who hosted assemblies for kindred souls ill fitted to the rigid forms of the age. There, amid whispered laughter and the scent of spiced punch, she first beheld me crossdressed as myself, not the half version polite society demanded. Her smile, so unafraid, so brilliantly defiant had unstitched my fears as though they were loose threads upon a cuff. Our meetings became the secret rhythm of our lives: letters written in unseen ink, evenings stolen beneath the mist‑wreathed arches of the Cathedral close, where even the saints carved upon the walls seemed complicit in our forbidden contentment. Then came the pandemic fever. The city coughed and trembled beneath its pall, and Gökçe torn from me within a week was laid among the cold stones of St. Chad’s yard. In her final moments, as I sat cloaked at her bedside, she had whispered through cracked lips, “Promise me you will not hide yourself from the world in mourning. Wear beauty for both of us.” Yet how could I do so? Beauty, to the bereaved, becomes a cutting blade. Thus it was upon this morning, four months hence, that I sought to honour that vow. I made my way through the quiet lanes of the Cathedral City to McRae & Daughters, Purveyors of Mourning and Formal Attire. The shop’s brass bell gave a low, reverent note as I entered. Mrs McRae herself appeared, a tall woman of genteel bearing, her hair silvered but her eyes bright as cut glass. “Good morrow,” she said softly. “You come for mourning, I think?” “For remembrance,” I replied. “Not of death, but of what death could not take.” She inclined her head, understanding blooming behind that merchant’s polish which age cannot quite conceal. From the cupboard behind her she drew forth two treasures: a Black Tartan Satin headscarf, its sheen as moonlight upon coal, and a sheer chiffon voile veil, so fine that breath seemed likely to scatter it. “Exquisite work,” she murmured, laying them before me. “I require them for a pilgrimage,” I told her. “To the resting place of one whose heart yet governs mine.” Her lips did not move, but a flicker of softness crossed her expression, a compassion seasoned by decades of watching others purchase attire for grief. When I placed the scarf upon my head, its coolness brushed my temples like benediction. The veil descended over my eyes, dimming the world into softened outlines. For a moment, I believed I glimpsed Gökçe reflected behind me in the mirror, a faint silhouette, smiling through the satin haze. Outside, the bells of noon tolled low and heavy across the square. I crossed the flagstones toward the Cathedral, that great monument of patient sorrow, its stones blackened by both rain and memory. The wind played with my attire, lifting the edges of my veil in gentle mockery, as if inviting me to dance once more through the shadows of our secret youth. At the gates of the graveyard, I paused. A gypsy lady selling flowers approached shyly, clutching a handful of violets. “For your lost love?” she asked, her accent plain as clay. “For my beloved,” I said, and pressed a coin into her palm. At the grave, a modest stone softened by the dew, I knelt. The fabric of my skirts rippled like dark water about me. “Gökçe,” I whispered, “I have done as you bade me. I wear what beauty remains, though the joy of it burns like frost upon my breast.” The wind answered in a voice not unlike laughter. The veil brushed against my lips once more, fluttering as though stirred by a sigh too gentle for this world. When I rose, I did not feel the weight of sorrow so keenly as before. It seemed to me that in the gleam of the tartan, in the satin’s melodic rustle, something of our love still lived, a pulse across the gulf of years. Watching from a distance, the gypsy lady would say later that she thought she saw two figures leaving the yard that day: one in mourning black, the other in pale reflection, hand‑in‑hand beneath the shrouded sun. Perhaps she was right.
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