It all started for me when i met my wife 17 years ago , when she first moved in with me , she would do her best to try and put make up on me which i didnt want. But after 5 years later we was jokin and messin about my moobs sayin that 1 of her bras would fit me , so i went to find them and try them on , i found a bra that fitted nicely it was a 42 DD. The wife came up to see on how i was getting on and saw how i looked , i even found a pair of her panties to put on over my boxers , my wife then pulled me on to the bed and snogged my face off after that i took them off and didnt bother after that. It was only until 4 years ago back in 2020 when we had the lock downs as me my wife had a walk down a road at the back of my house when i was tryin to sort out my balls from sticking to my legs when she says what are you doing me beain me says im just sorting out your panties that iv got on. With a very shocked face and a sweet smile she asked if i had but i didnt. That put the idear into my head so when we got back i went to the bedroom put on her sexy panties and went to show her. She loved it and we made out. Its was at this point i started to think about crossdressing , i chatted to my wife and she was ok with it. When i started to dress up and put on the make up and wig to seen the new me thats when i started to feel diffarnt and right. Now i can only dress up when i can as family life gets in the way , i feel very strongly about be female and i still need that curage to see the docs to be refurred to gender clinic and to be put on HRT.