Right here goes..... My story... I'm 52, and have just recently admitted to myself and my family, that I am a crossdresser. I guess I knew what I was, when I was in my early twenties, however due to generational stigma, and my own insecurities, I convinced myself it was only a sexual fetish. Fast forward 30yrs, and a misunderstood (entirely on my part) comment from my gf, left me frustrated. So as men generally do I resorted to porn... So there I was one day, scrolling through this porn site, and there they were... Men dressed in women's clothes, looking so confident and comfortable, I was immediately transfixed. Now don't get wrong, I am 100% hetrosexual, and I was in no way sexually arroused by them, but my mind was on fire, it felt like I'd found a piece of myself, I didn't even know was missing. A couple of days later, after much urmming and aching, I order myself some lingerie online (as you do), and eagerly awaited delivery. When they came, I tried them on, and wore them to bed (gf was none too happy when she realised, I can tell you), I thought I'd feel shame, guilt, or even try and joke my way out of it. But I didn't feel any negative emotions, at all. In fact I felt comfortable, confident, and unequivocally unashamed of the fact that I was laid there, in bed, wearing a pair of lace boyshorts, a bralet and suspenders, and nothing else. I think my style (at least for now until I get more comfortable/confident, will be goth, as it is quite androgynous, and will allow me more freedom to explore. So any advice/tips, would be greatfully received. I look forward to hearing from you all.... Apologies for the essay, just thought I'd lay it all out there, so there's no crossed wires in future conversations🤣🤣🤣

Ok girls, can I just say, I'm here looking for tips and advice, not looking to hook up with anyone....